If anything makes sense

Its exactly what you said. It makes you more human in a way that I can relate. I really don't know whats going on because what I wanted before, I sure as hell don't want anymore. and I feel super bad because I know it's just me being me; I lose interest in things very quickly, and I don't think you know that so I don't know what to say.
I'm me, and I know how I am, I just don't know why. The one thing that hurts me the most, I want the most. And the one thing that may actually make me really happy right now, I don't want to corrupt so I want nothing to do with it.

I know what I need, the problem is everyone thinks its wrong.

FUCK YOUR LIFE.
And let me live mine.

Once again, the loose ends hang untied, and will never be tied unless...

It's too much to ask for.
I'm scared that I don't have that control over you anymore and I HATE it