It's Not My Fault.

I HATE it when I get into these moods. Like out of no where I'll go from being happy and fine, to just feeling blah and fuck you. People ask me why and the only thing I can reply back with it "I don't know" and with that said, people then jump to conclusions that I just don't feel like telling them, or don't want to open up. Negative. I have nothing wrong with providing answers to the questions people ask, It's just that I really honestly don't know why I go through this. It sucks, and it makes me feel even worse now, because how stupid does that sound?

"Hi, I'm Shianne and uhh....I just can't seem to control my feelings."

Oh yeah, I'm sure people will just loove that. It's bothering me not only because I can't give a logical answer to the question "What's wrong" but also because they usually don't believe me when I say I don't know. The only part I don't get, is why that happens. I'm fine, like really. I'm happy with everything right now. There's nothing that should be causing this sudden mood change every now and then, so that's why I just don't understand this.
See I think I think too much, and I pretty much prove myself right when I lay awake in bed at night for hours just thinking and thinking. Now, my thinking isn't always bad, but it always isn't good either. I just over think things sometimes, and......
And I don't know where I'm going with this.
Good Night.