A couple; Drinks later?

Purple rain clouds, fog up my heart;
It's in the dark, I can't tell us apart.
Fucked up messages reply faster than you do;
I can't hold this against you.
You sit and wallow about how hard life is;
you wonder who your wife is.
Come home sit down and think the night away.
This dark shade of gray; it brightens your day.
Hoping for a mistake to take your breath away;
looking away, that was my dismay.
I hold you close; I honestly do,
but right now the best thing is
for me to up and leave you.
Hold you; Is all I want to do.
I'm scared that you'll fuck me over,
like i always do; With,
Old habits, make newspaper headlines;
crime lines on how I feel.
I'm hoping now; this is the real deal.
Yeah you feel it? It Beating in my chest;
striving to be different from the rest.
Holding on to you, wondering;
If you could be the best.
Even though i deserve less..than perfect, it's true.
Hold it against me, but I can be and will be;
Something different for Y O U.