I guess you can say

I'm somewhat a fake, I mean, sure I call myself that from time to time and it really doesnt bother me when people call ME that because chances are I dont like them anyways. But what DOES bother me, is this summer I've became everything I've always looked down on. Its really hard to admit that, so I dont. I just avoid answering the question...simple enough, right? WRONG! Because I still wake up, still thinking about everything and all I want to do is stop. But I cant stop, Its not my nature to stop, all I can do is keep going...and keep on living. Good or bad, at least I'm living and NOT just existing...So I guess that gets me by.