So

I think I lost my instructions for my "life", can I have yours? Or do I have to just try to put this together myself? That can't be fun at all. No, I am NOT complaining, beause I have everything anyone could ask for...but what I find real funny is that I didnt ask for it. It sort of just fell into place, open eyes can see I have everything....yet I dont want it, so I shut my eyes. I make up struggles, and set myself up in crappy ass situations so that way I can actually LEARN something, and I wont take everything for what its not worth, but for what it IS worth. Sometimes I can close my eyes, think about things, and I get a smile on my face, but then I peek open one eye, and the smile quickly fades. I put myself here, now I have to get myself out. A L L B Y M Y S E L F, that ways I can say look I did it, all by myself....

A L L B Y M Y M O T H E R F U C K I N G S E L F

Then, I shall dig another hole, bury myself in it and start getting out all over again.
So maybe I don't need those instructions after all, just maybe I can do this alone...