I think a lot

But I never really think about GOOD things or POSTIVE things. Its pretty weird actually. You know how they say the advice you give, is actually the advice YOU yourself need to take? I think thats 100% true. I mea, I've been told I've helped soooo many people, and I've directed them towards the right way, but then I look at myself and think,
How the fuck did I do that, when I'm a complete trainwreck myself?
But see, you wouldn't know that. I keep it all in my head, and I'm never letting anyone in. No matter how well you know me or how much you tell me, I will NEVER tell anyone what I'm really thinking or how I really feel. You might honestly think I'm insane, or think I'm pretty fucked up in my head.
You may think its sad, that I'm really two different people, but it keeps me happy. I have the outside me, who all my friends know and "love" but really I bet you they would HATE who I am on the inside. Its pretty god damn intense.

I'm a good writer, I write a lot. But you'll never see those either. I found a couple of my old poems and just little things I wrote down, and they made me cringe. So I could only inagine what they would do to somebody else.

Post Secrets has been my obsession for the past 4 months i would probably say. I want to submit one, but then I'm afraid that I'll never stop submitting them, or I'm scared that someone will figure out which one I wrote. Oh well...